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A parent of one of my students works IT for a private Christian school. He has access to all the kids' work -- it's almost all done digitally. He claims that the kids there are all cheating on everything and he has his child in our school because there are no devices. His child isn't a great student, but it's his contention that being at our site will be an enormous advantage because our students actually have done the work and, so, may have actually learned something.

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I was so so excited to get into teaching... I love my content with all my heart, I am an English teacher who is constantly reading and writing, literature is truly my PASSION and I also love teaching and love talking about books and connecting with others about them, so of course, I became a teacher. Fast forward three years and I'm seriously considering leaving the position and starting over with an office job, which may be soulless and not at all connected to the things that I'm passionate about but will at least be less painful than this.

First of all, I teach tenth grade. Most of my students are simply unable to understand or approach tenth grade level literature. Things that I was being taught in eighth grade, such as To Kill A Mockingbird, are now the purview of tenth grade honors classes, and considered "incredibly difficult." My school mostly wants us to teach YA and graphic novels to our students, which are valid and worthwhile forms of literature, but are simply NOT at the same level as things like The Great Gatsby, Their Eyes Were Watching God, or Fahrenheit 451!!

I am constantly being told by my colleagues and admin that my assessments are too difficult and I demand too much. My discipline is frequently demeaned by teachers, guidance counselors, admin, etc, as something that students need to "get through" in order to graduate. I am not respected or treated like a professional, and most students do not have any respect for education at all, believing that nothing they are taught in school is relevant or worthwhile, which breaks my heart. I feel like my heart is broken every day, which sounds dramatic, but it's difficult to have the thing I love most in the world (literature) demeaned and devalued day in and day out.

Most of my students are at a fifth, sixth, or seventh grade level. If I wanted to teach middle school, I would. I am not interested in teaching middle school content or at a middle school reading level. I had hoped I would be able to show students the beauty of the written word, help them connect with people, times, and places that are completely different from their own experiences, and expand their minds and confidence in their own voices through rigorous writing exercises and various novels. Instead I count down the hours in my head until I can go home.

I don't feel like I can be the teacher they deserve because I am so demoralized. I love when I actually get to teach, those rare moments of connection with students, times when I see them understanding and engaging with the material. But those moments are so infrequent, and everything else is so arduous, that it doesn't feel worth it anymore.

Sorry for the essay - your words resonated and hit a nerve, I guess!

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